Tomorrow, it will be one day until my seventeenth birthday. Even though it isn't a 'milestone' so to speak, I love birthdays. I love the feeling you get when it's your birthday, and nothing can break your stride. So needless to say, I need this birthday.
I have gotten over anger I have toward individuals, and I'm sure I'll cope with the given circumstances, or whatever. I'm so happy I get to see Steph tomorrow, and hopefully Molly and Wilson too. I don't see enough of them.
It doesn't feel like I'm about to go overseas for two weeks. And I don't usually get the 'holiday feeling' until I'm actually in Thailand, in the taxi, on the way to my hotel.
I get to see my friends tomorrow night in celebration of my birthday, can't wait.
And by the way, I don't give a shit about you.
Monday, March 30, 2009
Hit me, you can't hurt me
It's three days until my birthday, which means four days until I go to Thailand. Chiang Mai is the only place apart from home, when I truly feel like home. I feel like I can truly embrace and appreciate the Thai culture.
I get to see basically everyone that means something to me this week, for my birthday and before I leave, which I'm so grateful for. It's likely I will be having minimal to no contact with them for the next two weeks, so though it'll be sad, I think it'll be good to have a huge break from everyone.
Life is pretty smooth at the moment, and most of the problems that graced me last week have now somewhat disappeared. Though it is aggravating that these things are just 'forgotten' and life is lived on as usual, I guess I don't have another choice.
These pictures sum up my weekend, oh so Haileybury, but I loved it.
I get to see basically everyone that means something to me this week, for my birthday and before I leave, which I'm so grateful for. It's likely I will be having minimal to no contact with them for the next two weeks, so though it'll be sad, I think it'll be good to have a huge break from everyone.
Life is pretty smooth at the moment, and most of the problems that graced me last week have now somewhat disappeared. Though it is aggravating that these things are just 'forgotten' and life is lived on as usual, I guess I don't have another choice.
These pictures sum up my weekend, oh so Haileybury, but I loved it.
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Take me to the place I love
The weekends used to be somewhere where I could get away from the pain that is school. Now, I seem to always be fighting with at least one of my friends, or they seem to have some superficial nonsense problem that they can't sort out for the benefit of everyone else.
The past month has been huge, and it has taught me so much. I don't care about anything anymore. I couldn't give less of a shit about peoples break-ups or make ups or who fucked who, because there are much, much more important things in life. It has taught me that your life truly can be taken from you, at any point in time, so you have to live your life to it's full capacity, and not stop for all the losers who will stop you on the way. And trust me, there are plenty of them.
It has also taught me how much I take for granted, and how much I need to appreciate what I have in life.
From now on, I'm doing what's best for me, and doing what I want to do. I'm going to say exactly what I want and treat people how they deserve to be treated. I have no room for people who constantly treat me like shit, yet still call themselves my friend, I don't need you anymore and you obviously don't need me.
The past month has been huge, and it has taught me so much. I don't care about anything anymore. I couldn't give less of a shit about peoples break-ups or make ups or who fucked who, because there are much, much more important things in life. It has taught me that your life truly can be taken from you, at any point in time, so you have to live your life to it's full capacity, and not stop for all the losers who will stop you on the way. And trust me, there are plenty of them.
It has also taught me how much I take for granted, and how much I need to appreciate what I have in life.
From now on, I'm doing what's best for me, and doing what I want to do. I'm going to say exactly what I want and treat people how they deserve to be treated. I have no room for people who constantly treat me like shit, yet still call themselves my friend, I don't need you anymore and you obviously don't need me.