I don't know what to believe anymore

I don't want to believe.

Speak up, i'm listeninnnn'

I had my first actual proper real performance of my Drama solo yesterday and it went way better than I even could have thought. I didn't fuck up any lines and I think I delivered all the emotion I needed to. I perform it for real in exactly 24 hours and 11 minutes. I'm stressing because I've never done anything like this before, but I'm sure I'll somehow get through. I had a wicked day with MattyT yesterday, even though we were at school and supposed to be studying, it was fun. I have the English exam on Friday which I'm pretty sure I'm royally fucked for. I have my new job training tomorrow and Thursday which unfortunately takes up a whole lot of study time. However after English, I don't have any exams until the 12th of November, so I basically have no reason to be ill prepared for my following exams. My dad goes to Thailand today for two weeks, I will miss him but my Mum and I always have fun so that's cool. I don't really have much else on my mind, apart from that I hope I'm not working next Thursday so I can see Molly in her play. And also, I can't wait for TUI/WOOOOORD UP/50L/Cultures in not too long.

22 days couldn't come sooner. The end of exams and the end of MattyT's childhood, kthx

Pitbull.

I don't even know why I'm listening to this weird song, but it fits my weird mood. Basically, I think I have feelings for someone I never thought I would...

I'm a creep.

Hello Old Friend

How nice it is to hear from you again.
I honestly have missed you a lot.

class of 2009

I never could've planned to have cried as much as I did, or feel as empty as I do. I'm so happy that I've graduated and also scared, yet excited to see what my future holds.

What a weekend,

I don't even know where to begin, so I guess I'll begin with the start! It all started when I illegally left school on Friday with Steve then hung out on the train with Croley. We met up with Nicole, then Jam and Billy and made our way to the 'Daylight' instore at Missing Link. We got wee lil' Molly and saw some other kind faces (Tom, Donch, Luke, Brooke, Alexis, Nathan and others) too. My first impression of Daylight was, 'Hoooooly shit', and at that moment I knew that love at first sight/listen was completely true. I was in complete and utter awe the entire time and couldn't make the smile leave my face. After this we met up with Claire, Tommo, Emily and Denise and I got to spend fantastic quality time with a lot of my friends. After a bit of hanging out and singing Happy Birthday to Brooke), most of us made our way down to the Arthouse. This marked Sam's first show with Vultures which he did a wonderful job at. MattyT, Rachel, Daniel and Steve joined us at some stage and brought even more fun to the table. Many beers and laughs were had, and it was an enjoyable night which allowed me to see Daylight (Twice in one day, I know!) and Break Even. Getting the last train home with this rowdy bunch was a treat, and getting into bed with Rachel and Molly was even more of a treat. Waking up early and starting homework like a good study buddy was actually enjoyable, but cooking breakfast and a marvelous lunch for those ladies was more fun. After studying all day and Molly playing Blowfish on my iPod all day, we got picked up in the Tarantomobile to visit the House of Barrow with a bunch of other lovely fellows. Because Molly and I were tired and in a 'meh' mood, we thought we wouldn't enjoy ourselves but how wrong we were! The band name game was in full swing and lasted for a great amount of time. Molly and I then came back to my house to get some hard earned rest. We awoke to the sound of lovely bird alarm clock and got ready. After a wonderful breakfast cooked by Aileen, off we were, to meet up with our friends and go to Break Even, again. We chilled then made our way to the Evelyn in which I got to be in the company of my Top 3 Josh's all at once in the line. Overall it was a pretty good show, in which we got to see Donch again (and he let me keep his propeller hat), mosh with Mr Josh Wells, cuddle my wonderful Gareth, dance ridiculously and celebrate Nicole's birthday (happy 19th my lovely). After a fabulous train ride home, I walk into my lounge room to find my Mac is back! I like my life.

**The above is a detailed piece of writing because if I ever get amnesia I'll want to remember this and the wonderful people I spent it with.

Hello Summer

Sick~

One of my best friends says she's moving away in a few weeks, and expects nothing to change. One of my other best friends, quite obviously only cares about one person in her life now days. There are other people I once considered to be best friends, but just decide to walk out of my life.

I know I'm a selfish sook, but fuck, so over it.

Can't wait to graduate.